30 by 30 (yes this was inspired by a former Bachelor star)
Making a list of goals, even though it scares me and my body.
I turned 29 at the beginning of this month. I was nervous about turning 29, not because I was getting older, but because 28 was a phenomenal year. My PTSD loves to convince me that if things are going well, they will get bad again really soon. And I understand why PTSD does this; there has been a lot of trauma in my life, and many times things have gotten really dark so my brain has been conditioned to think that way. But living in fear of the “what-ifs” will destroy me (they've already come close on many occasions).
The anxiety of turning 29 has faded, and now I’m just excited for the year ahead. I am so excited to turn 30. I’ve heard it’s a great decade, and I recently realized that a part of me never thought I’d make it to 30.
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